Strange Feeling

Original Post Date:
Monday, August 20, 2007

I found out our relief might be here quicker than we thought. It is strange thinking about coming home. Half of me can not wait until I get home. However, the other half doesn't want to leave. I really don't know how to explain it. I guess it is a feeling of not wanting to leave things unfinished here. I do not want to leave all the other servicemen and women here that still have to do a job. A main reason of not wanting to leave Iraq is knowing all of the interpreters are still going to be here. The interpreters do not deserve this type of life in Iraq. Any honest Iraqi does not deserve this type of Iraq.

They don't deserve this horrible excuse of a government and Prime Minister. The US made this the front lines in our war. That was our mistake. We need to put all our effort into fixing it. The other half of me wants to stay to help Iraq. This will be my last deployment. I am getting out next year. If it wasn't for me being married I probably would stay in the Air Force. The other half of me wants to get out of the military. I don't have to spend six months at a time away from her and my dogs. However, the other half feels that strange feeling. I guess the strange feeling is failure. That during my time here, all the effort will be in vain. The US will leave this country to it's neighbors and all effort the Iraqis that helped the US will also be in vain.